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so, i’ve been meaning to make a list of all the things little E signs and says, as well as start keeping track of the words and signs we’re working on. his willingness to communicate with words and sign sort of exploded just recently (i can’t remember exactly when, but it was maybe a little before his first birthday). he wants us to read to him, to tell him what things are, and to pay attention to him when he’s talking. he’s curious, but can get frustrated if we don’t catch on soon enough. ah, toddlerhood … as of this week (at 13 months), here’s where we’re at:

signs

  • all done
  • bye-bye
  • drink
  • food
  • milk
  • more
  • points (at everything, really; it’s also his form of saying hello 50-75% of the time instead of waving)
  • potty (he’ll point in the direction of his diaper or tap his underpants when he needs to go)
  • wash (he’ll rub his chest and tummy like he’s getting washed)
  • yes & no (though, he mostly just does no; he does know how to nod if he wants to)

words he says

  • mama
  • papa
  • boob (heehee; this was technically his first word)
  • more (which currently still sounds like “moe”)
  • woof/arf (for dog or when the dog barks at things)
  • bye-bye (bah-bah or just ba! with a bit of a country twang)
  • all done (he says “ah duh” and signs all done)
  • bath (also sounds like ba!)
  • Bible (sounds like “bai-bu” and he can pick out his Jesus Storybook Bible from the shelf no matter where it is when we ask for it before bedtime)
  • balloon (sounds like “mamoon” most of the time)
  • nurse (as in, to eat, which is his own made up word of “nah nah.” sometimes, he chooses to use this word for me in general instead of mama)
  • night night
  • vroom vroom (for motorcycles and cars and sometimes bicycles)

words we’re working on

  • book
  • up (& down, i guess)
  • dog

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so, it’s been a while, hasn’t it?

sorry for that.

i appear to have difficulty finding balance, but i’m not really convinced that’s quite as bad of a situation as it sounds. i think that i work best when i feel as though i’m flying by the seat of my pants, and right now, i feel as though i’m just getting by on the skin of my teeth every day.

little E spent the past two weeks sick and teething (he’s still teething, but his ear infection and cold are finally fading). this makes life for me a bit difficult—it’s hard to work when you have a whining one year old practically strapped to your body at all times. well, i probably could have worn him in the mei tai a bit and had two free hands more often, but i don’t think that would’ve solved our whining, crankiness issues. it’s been a hard few weeks and now that it’s Monday, i’m still exhausted and ready for another weekend.

even if working for myself form home can sometimes feel like one very long Saturday, i assure you the reality is that i still have times that i live for the real weekend.

that said, i know i am not working enough.

i’m listless and dissatisfied. there is more i could be doing. there is so much caught up inside me, that much like the season of spring, i can feel it all budding and longing to burst forth.

it’s just been easier said than done for me and i’m still trying to figure out why.

i’ve been feeling on the edge of something for quite some time. like a break through is just around the corner. like i’m about to stumble into an epiphany. like something’s going to catch fire. i like this feeling. it makes me smile and keeps me active. it motivates me to sketch, to take notes, to hoard inspiration.

now that little E is feeling better, i know he’s going to be getting back into the groove of being his very busy one-year-old self. i need to take this moment to get on the same page as my husband. we’re currently … totally not. sometimes, i feel as though we’re unconsciously working against each other instead of with each other, especially now that i’m home all the time. we don’t have a rhythm. or, if we do, i don’t see it. or, if we do, we’re at least not moving to the same tempo. this makes mothering and working and living hard for me.

part of my silence and frustrations have revolved around me feeling alone.

i suppose this is part of the burden of freelancing, but i also know in my heart it doesn’t have to be so. there’s plenty of community out there if i’m willing to invest myself in it.

i need to invest some more of myself in my home, in my relationships first, however. i just hope that my motivation is reciprocated.

i miss blogging. i feel as though i’ve lost my voice.

having a little home here in the internet has been dear to me since i was just a kid. an awkward high school kid. for me, the interwebs is just as much a comfortable place as my couch. i need to spend some time here like i need hot showers. however, i can tell there’s been a disconnect. i’m still trying to put things back together again and it’s been more difficult than i expected. more difficult to put into words. there’s a lot going on and i’m still trying to juggle it, i guess. or something. i’m not entirely sure.

it’s abstract but heavy for me. a burden on my daily thoughts.

for now, i’ll just say that i want to have this space back. i want to reclaim this particular bloggy part of myself. while i’ll also be blogging separately on my business website, i want sojourning, us to be a place where i explore family life, spiritual life, and personal stuff. this is the other part of me, though it is certainly not separated from the working part. i don’t really feel like myself when the creative is separated from the personal. work for me usually requires just as much of my whole self as family life, so i can’t promise this place to be devoid of shop talk.

anyway. i don’t really know who reads this anymore, but i’m sorry i’ve been so quiet. i’ve struggled to carve out time for this sort of thing, but i’m slowly getting better.

let’s hang out some more. i’ve missed you.

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In the process of starting my own business, I never intended this place to grow silent. Unfortunately, I kind of let it go to the wayside while focusing on designing my portfolio and getting the ball rolling seeking out clients and work. Now, I really miss this place and have been trying to figure out ways to relight the fire.

Sorry for my absence.

I’m on a quest to find my voice and I hope that this place can once again become a part of that.

So, I’ll be back on Monday.

Thanks for waiting.

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happy new year and all that jazz.

yup, i'm 10 months old.

i’ve just busy getting things together for my new business(es). stay tuned. working from home is an adventure … can you tell? such is life with a 10-month old, apparently. haha.

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2011 Calendar by GINNIP

2011 Calendar by GINNIP

I seem to have disappeared. My apologies for not being regular about my blog posting lately come wrapped in a candy shell—last week I announced to my office (my wonderful, awesome office) that I would like to pursue my own business as a self-employed freelancer. I’ve been sitting on that egg for a long time—almost 9 months, if not more. I didn’t want to wait until the new year, especially because I want to make the transition as painless as possible for both my coworkers and for myself. The moment was bittersweet, but everyone at work has been supportive. Sad, but encouraging at the same time.

I can’t complain about that, can I?

So, 2011 is going to be the start of a very big, very new, very exciting adventure for hubbs, the babe, the dog, and I.

It’s still a little scary; there are a lot of what ifs and what if nots hovering around in the back of my mind. However, I do believe it’s not only possible for me to make a living as a freelance designer and maker, but I believe it’s the best choice for our family.

I’ve wanted to work for myself as long as I’ve been a designer (that’s 10 years now, by the way), and I can say I finally reached a point where it was time to either pursue my passions or put them away and forget about them in hopes of stumbling upon new ones. I’ll admit that starting a family has changed everything for me, especially my connection to home. Going back to work in an office six weeks after Elisha was born was hard. For everyone. We’ve all managed amazingly well, I’d say, but there is still a burden for home that nags in my heart every day.

I also have felt the urge do more than just organize information as a designer; I’d like to make more visual art in the form of printmaking, cards, and other such things. I feel like I have so many ideas and so little time to express them. I’m finally making the time.

I don’t think I’ll end up disappointed.

I’m trusting that God is leading us in the right direction, that He has big plans for us and the kind of freedom that self-employment brings. I know it will mean more work, not less, but it will be a different kind of more. It will be challenging. It will be expensive. It will be a new kind of hard, a challenge that I look forward to. I want to be able to look back in another 10 years and see God’s faithfulness written all over it, too.

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if i could just manage to carve out enough time to myself, i’d be writing more about bad typography instead of just bad type. however, today just isn’t that day. so, in honor of my usual typography tuesday, here are some fonts that need to be retired, be it from print or web or both.

1. papyrus. as a Christian, this font really should be added to the 10 commandments. thou shalt not overuse this font would’ve been a fantastic warning. it’s everywhere—on the web and in print and on buildings and tshirts and … ugh. you name it and papyrus has been there. there’s even websites entirely devoted to cataloging each of its new and equally painful applications.

2. comic sans. people were hating on this font before they were complaining about papyrus, and yet … it’s still just as overused. well, i suppose that’s a matter of opinion, because one could simply argue that comic sans is used improperly more than it’s abused. heh. whichever.

3. brush script. the font on everyone’s high school sports team jersey. the font i trimmed out of large sheets of vinyl for application on vans and other vehicles. the cursive but not too illegible font that doesn’t quite look like handwriting but looks like handwriting just enough to be cool … it could use a break.

those are the top three to me, but there are so many more. yes, hobo. yes, eurostile. yes, bank gothic. some of these still have uses, when used well. there are plenty of good fonts out there, type that can be used more effectively to accomplish something than whatever everyone else has used before. often, it’s the application of the type that’s just as wrong as the font choice.

but, that’s the stuff of another post.

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